DEAR WIFE,

God is not a man that he might lie, or a son of man that he might change his mind…
(Num 23:19)

I struggle with these words. 

You see, I have trust issues. I loved a man who lied and changed his mind and it made me question everyone in my life. Are they being honest? Are they true to their word?

When I look to God, it’s nearly impossible to not sling the same questions at him. 
God, are you lying to me? Could you walk away too?

Raised fists rarely point towards soft hearts. 

And I want a soft heart so badly. I don’t want to close myself off to God and others because I am afraid. What a miserable and lonely cage that would lock me into. I want to have a heart that trusts and chooses to love without restraint. 

So how do we get there?  

Dear Wife, we rest ourselves on our TRUE God. We fix our feet on his promises fulfilled—the ones in his Word and the ones in our own lives. We look at his track record and his nature. We ask for his help. I think he loves the prayer, I believe! Help my unbelief! We start by being honest with our doubts and fears. 

Is this easy or a quick fix? Nope. This is hard, heart-level work. But we are not alone in it. We have God’s Spirit within us, and he will lead us to truth and trust. He will be our Counselor and our Teacher, reminding us of God’s promises (Jn 14). Let’s remember that Jesus is TRUTH incarnate (Jn 14:6)!

The outcome of this heart-work is fresh trust. And isn’t that what we really want in the end? We want to be women with faces set like flint on our true and trustworthy God. We don’t want to be tossed and swayed by doubt and fear. 

So today, let’s do the work. Let’s plant our feet on solid ground. Let’s remember that it’s impossible for God to speak and not act, to promise and not fulfill. Let’s look back at our history and see that he has never failed. Let’s open his Word to dig for promises like buried treasure (Prov 2:1-6). Let’s allow our reasons to trust to be shaped by God rather than our ex-husbands. He is true and worthy of our absolute trust today.